Completely exhausted… but then I hold on and remember that I have this hope as an anchor for my soul, firm and secure. This hope that my eternal home is not too far out of my reach. The hope of spending eternity with Jesus.
When I let Hebrews 16:9 soak in, I am able to let go and I take a sweet deep breath of grace and freedom.
It’s the reminder that God remains who he is regardless of what I choose to believe or do. For if He were to need me to do anything for Him, He himself would not be God. The reminder that though I am not needed to fulfill any part of his plan of redemption.
AW Tozer said it quite well when He wrote,
"To believe in Him adds nothing to His perfections; to doubt Him takes nothing away."
It’s this idea that He is God…. AND YET HE STILL CHOSE ME.
He chose me beforehand to know him and invites me in to join in his glorious plan of redemption and salvation. He longs for us to experience a love we cannot comprehend, a joy that is greater than we can ever experience, and a peace which transcends all understanding.
So undeserving and unworthy — yet with open arms He gives graciously. The God who is worthy of all of my life, and more, claims me as His own on calvary, and makes me worthy.
It’s this constant reminder that humbles me every day; yet gives me bold confidence to live under the grace of a beautiful and wonderful savior.
May you be reminded of who you are in light of who He is today.
Be encouraged to do big things.
You have been chosen.
The term “Missions Trip” always makes me shiver. Maybe it’s the bad rep and critiques I’ve read on missions trip, how they can be ineffective and even harmful if not done “correctly”. I totally see that side of the whole idea — but I guess what keeps me even further from going on a short term missions trip brings about the idea that you’re going to adventure out to do big and amazing things for God and then after that just come back to live your mundane ordinary lives. It’s far from what I believe life should be, maybe thats why it repels me. Life should never be ordinary when you are following Jesus.
This is not a missions trip. This is you, drawing closer to Jesus.
Why should it be considered a missions trip when I’m going to continue to keep doing what God has called me to do just as I am doing right now? I am going to continue to love the people who I meet there like how I love those here. I will be teaching about the love that Jesus has to offer, just like I teach my kids and my girls here. I will continue to seek Jesus in my everyday and be open to be used as he has called me — hopefully to an even greater extent so that upon my return I would be made even more into his likeness every day.
I’m leaving to southeast asia for a few months, but it’s not for the sake of being a short-term trip. I believe that in obedience this trip will be another way that God will shape me and stretch me outside of my comfort zone. Through this he will open my heart to the reality of things I need to let go of, to see the world like how he sees. This trip will be a chance for the perfecter of my faith to carry out the good work that he has began within me.
I’m not going on a missions trip — but I’m simply following Jesus wherever I am at, being transformed in the process.
So know this wherever you are at this moment.
The world is your missions field.
See the blessings.
It is in this time of singleness know that you are being stretched, molded, and shaped in his likeness. In this time of singleness would you seek what it really means to love him and his people, both those he has put in your path and a love for those who have not yet met Jesus. May this time of singleness be used as a season of fruitfulness, a time to sharpen your gifts, and deepen your faith.
May your singleness be seen as a gift. A time of learning the true meaning of a heart in the making of ‘Undivided devotion to the Lord’. So then, when the time comes to join with another, you can further sharpen, challenge, and strengthen each other — with the intention and ability to reflect your First Love.
1 Corinthians 7:35
"I am saying this for your own good, not to restrict you, but that you may live in a right way in undivided devotion to the Lord."
May you draw closer in complete enjoyment of his presence each day. In your singleness may you know you are forever never alone. So may you remember to embrace your singleness and remember to whom you should give your undivided devotion. To the one who loves you most, to the one who is worthy of everything, to the one who gave it all for you.
Just a tiny-little-bitty-itty-super-duper-flippin-out exciting to see my best friend this weekend.
"Greatness is never the product of giftedness. Greatness is always the product of faithfulness."
"Why in the world are you leaving for 4 months?!"
Four months may not be a big deal to the average person, but for the girl who goes to college an hour away from home only to return EVERY WEEKEND to see her family….four months is a HUGE deal. For the girl who almost cries every time her Grandma calls her to pray over her or just to tell her she misses her. For the girl who works with her sister and even went to the same college with her sister (and best friend). Yeah, 4 months away is crazy.
(I thought you might understand my love for my family when you see how awesome & adorable they are.)
But for this home-bound girl who loves her family, finds comfort in her church, and never ventures out much — she has found a better love, a better comfort, and someone who can satisfy her deepest hearts desire. His name is Jesus.
LEARNING TO LET GO
I’ve wrestled so much with God about purpose, ministry, future and whether or not I’m following his ways instead of my own…and it’s been quite a journey. I believe one of God’s biggest lessons he’s been showing me is the it’s okay to let go. So thats what I’m doing and that is a partial reason for my trip.
I’m learning to let go. Letting go of acceptance from others. Letting go of what the world has to offer and holding onto something that will last forever. I am not losing anything, no, I am gaining more than the world.
For the next four months after graduating I will be walking in faith and in obedience — holding onto what his promises have to offer. Distractions unattached. 4 months after 4 years of college to reflect and refocus on life, and who I’m living it for.
I will not count my success of the trip on how many people I come into contact with, how many I will be able to love or teach, or whether I am able to only tell 1 person about Jesus or 100 people about my savior. I will count my success if during this time I find a deeper love for Jesus as I walk daily in obedience with him.
THE SCARY TRUTH:
And the scary truth is: I know it’ll be hard (and I’ll probably cry a lot). I will be probably be homesick and I know I will struggle. I will most likely have doubts (as I fight with this now) — but it’s okay because I believe this experience will give and bring about something better in me. In my surrendering I have found peace and freedom, so how foolish would it be to NOT obey and see what the Lord has in store?
I know and believe that carrying the cross daily is neither easy nor simple…but following Jesus and walking with him is much better and more satisfying than anything this world has to offer.
So if you’d like, I wouldn’t mind sharing with you my Philippians 1:6 journey the next few weeks as I prepare and the time while I’m overseas. And during this time know I’m praying over you with your eyes on this screen. I am not going to be blogging or posting photos so that I can boast in myself for I would rather crawl into my own little corner and hide if you thought this was about me, or anything I could do on my own. This blog is simply for the sake of my closest friends & family members to know what I’ve been doing and learning…and for you, who may want to know why we make this Jesus into such a huge deal.
I pray that you would be encouraged to walk by faith & obedience. That you would be able to find complete satisfaction in a completely wonderful savior.
"Being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus" Philippians 1:6
"If you don’t take the risk, you forfeit the miracle."
— Mark Batterson
"What was Christ doing in the carpenter’s shop? Practicing. Though perfect, we read that He learned obedience, He increased in wisdom and in favor with God and man.Do not quarrel therefore with your lot in life. Do not complain of its never-ceasing cares, its petty environment, the vexations you have to stand, the small and sordid souls you have to live and work with. Above all, do not resent temptation; do not be perplexed because it seems to thicken round you more and more, and ceases neither for effort nor for agony nor prayer. That is the practice, which God appoints you; and it is having its work in making you patient, and humble, and generous, and unselfish, and kind, and courteous. Do not grudge the hand that is moulding the still too shapeless image within you. It is growing more beautiful though you see it not, and every touch of temptation may add to its perfection."
— Henry Drummond 1880
"Our aim in life is to walk close to the Lord, not out of human fear, nor out of duty but out of the magnificent love God has demonstrated us through His Son. We can never grow tired of this truth because it is the essence of our very life. He loved us first so we can love Him. This is supernatural love."